I’ve been feeling mostly “blah…” or “bleh…” or “blech…” or “meh…”
lately. They’re all very similar.
I know I am not fat, but I feel fatter than I want to be. I
feel thick, not fat. I feel lethargic. I want to get up, move about, do something.
But I’m having trouble with motivation.
Last month I was exercising. That was good for the first few
weeks. But then I started feeling a little sickly and “bleh…”, and the exercise
didn’t really help that. It felt more like an obligation. I don’t have a goal
with the exercise. I just want to feel better. Maybe a goal would help.
I want to get out of my apartment and do things, but I have
nothing to do and no one to do anything with. Apparently, I’m a horribly boring
person.
(OR…maybe it’s that I’m always “a dick or disgusting”. That’s
what someone recently posted on my facebook. I was not aware of this
dick/disgusting quality. Sarcastic, snarky…absolutely. But to me, that’s not
the same as being a dick. And “disgusting”? I just don’t’ see it. Anyway…)
I just sit around here most of the time on my little couch
(loveseat actually, but there’s no love going so “little couch” it is) watching
netflix or youtube or whatever and feeling…meh…
